ImPROMPTvization

Not really one for the “if I could go back and change this, I would…” train of thought but in answering this prompt I’ll entertain. Obviously with hindsight being 20/20, one constant that always caused me to second guess myself in moments that I more than likely would’ve faired very well. The self confidence I lacked growing up and even into early adulthood always casted a cloud of doubt over my life and felt like a big ass weighted blanket that I didn’t ask for. Everything felt like I was fighting up a muddy hill. Learning the importance of solitude and how it can force you to learn more about who you are in all aspects…it’s really you versus you. When things go wrong you have no one to blame but you and your decision making, in turn when things are going right you have no one to celebrate but yourself simply because took the bold step in relying on self. Looking back it’s almost cringy seeing my past self through the eyes of my present self but I know I needed to be him in order to become me. To go from taking what you can get…to choosing your pick of the litter is a rewarding feeling. Standing on your business is no longer a shaky bridge because that confidence allows you to know that your next step is just as sure as the prior.