Bismillah.
Over the last few weeks I’ve found that my physical place of peace is, my living room floor. I roll my yoga mat out and lay there and just think for hours. Among these hundreds of thoughts was the facts that, people get so use to accepting bare minimum that they almost fear having to encounter better. And in speaking with numerous people about this topic the one thing stuck out. That was the question of, “do you have this fear because you literally aren’t in a place to provide better?” or “is it that, you don’t see better within yourself?” I personally have been in both positions. It’s most certainly crippling to say the least. Both sides will make you feel like you’re actually less than what you are. Which in turn could potentially cause your perspective partner to see you as such. One thing I’m constantly speaking on is the act of healing yourself from within. There are many people that feel as though just because they can ignore a certain event or person that may have caused some strife they’re healed….no. That’s not how that works. It takes a large amount of processing and acceptance to actually reach that stage. And trust you’ll definitely know when you have. I didn’t believe in real healing until I experienced it. Now, I’m in no way shape or from perfect but I can definitely say that healing has allowed me to set a hard line on what I will and will not accept from friends, family members and potential partners alike.
This process begins with stripping yourself of whatever ego you may have, be it deserved or undeserved. This stripping of the ego allows you to be at your vulnerable to yourself. Which is the most vulnerable you can be. Why? Because many people walk around with these masks(I’m not speaking about the nut ass ones, people have to wear in the store.) on. The masks I’m speaking of, shield you from the world around you and sometimes yourself. We all know that self-inflicted wounds are the worst ones. Because we see them coming, we feel them in real time and have to heal ourselves all while protecting ourselves from ourselves. So, once you’re able to let the ego go accepting you for who you are is so much easier. Life almost does a 360 for you, the same stuff won’t impress you anymore. Even the people that are around you will change. The ones that mattered at one point probably won’t anymore, simply because your frequencies won’t match. Now, what happens when frequencies don’t match? Stomach pains at just the thought of them, your entire nervous feels off whenever you’re around them and you may even start feel the effects in other relationships. It’s almost like allowing yourself to take on the healing process, gives you a chance to perform a self-cleaning. I like to likening this to an oven cleaning itself, you have to sometimes lock folks out in order to clean the inside.
As your going through this whole thing, you’re going to encounter people that may match your old way of thinking or your old way of being. Or may even want to keep you in a certain place mentally. Like, those people that are always telling you that the old you wouldn’t do this or that. But the fat of the matter is…this isn’t the old you. And you shouldn’t allow them to take you back to the old you. These types of people are usually kept somewhat close to test your new foundation. But with actual healing, that foundation can’t be shaken. It gives you the ability to stand on your newly discovered independence. An independence that allows you to be ready to receive exactly what you may be asking for. An unhealed person usually tends to hide behind an inflated sense of what they think life should be. While someone that is well within themselves, is able to deal with life in the present. My suggestion, if possible…take some time to yourself a few times a week to digest what’s going on in your life. Once you do this, make the conscious decision to pick through what serves you and what doesn’t.
Respect. 