Detachment.

Bismillah.

“I love myself, way more than I love you…” – Kanye West

This peace that I’m always speaking on, is something that I’ve only heard of and read about. But actually being able to feel it, is something that I try to live in daily! In my opinion finding your purpose has a lot to do with being able to find this place. Because let’s be honest no one wants to feel like they serve no purpose, you start to feel empty. As hard as it may feel at home or at work…imagine walking through life continuously with this void. A few people have asked how I was able to first of all being the process of finding it…my response is usually “try to unplug yourself from yourself”. By this I mean, unplug yourself from your daily routine. Change the route you take to work, when you come home put your phone on the charger in another room and leave it there. These are a couple examples of things I did to help me unplug from me. Especially the phone one! My phone was always in my hand, crazy part about that is I for some reason prided myself on being “quick texter”. But the truth is, it was only like that because that rectangle always had my attention. Another thing that helped me detach myself was the time I spent in San Diego! I was in familiar territory but away from my everyday life in Washington. The time I spent gave me an opportunity to process everything that was going on inside my mind. At that time my brain was full of miscellaneous thoughts that really had no purpose. They were just moving around with no where to go but back into the cycle of overthinking. One of those random thoughts that kept resurfacing was, “Do you love you?”. Like most people my response would be, “I’m working on it.”. But that wasn’t what self needed, self needed to hear “I’m going to make it happen no matter what!”.

Next step in this extremely long process was giving myself room to fail! We get so caught up in not wanting to fail that we begin to lives for other people, which in turn causes us to tune ourselves out. But in all actuality you must serve you first. I mean some of the most successful people history preach “self-mastery”. How can I tell someone I love them, if I’m not loving the man in the mirror properly? Now, as a part of becoming a master of yourself you’re going to run into things that’ll challenge you in aspects you didn’t think were possible. And guess what…you’re going to fall on your face…HARD!! But that’s fine, just make sure you keep getting up and improving every time you fall. I’ve always been told “failure is a part of the process” and never understood it. Because in school we’re taught that failure is final but it’s not! It’s actually the beginning in a lot of ways, now I’m not saying it’s ok to keep failing and just be ok with it. But I am saying that as long as you don’t run out of tries, you’re going to get it eventually. Think of watching a baby taking their first steps, they don’t stop until they get it right!! Some of these weird thought processes are engrained in us somehow through our lifetime and we hold to them like a life raft. Damn that! Let that crap go, get back to your essence and everything plays out exactly how it should!

After sorting through the BS, I finally got a chance to discover why the All placed me back on this planet! It was to inspire people through my words. Evidently in previous lives I didn’t love myself enough I guess lol. So here I am again, but we’re going to get it right this time around. As much as some may not want to admit it, it’s kind of hard to find that love inside of you when you feel like you’re just here. We all want fulfillment, nobody wants to be hollow I don’t care what you say. You’re cool with this and that, no you’re not because if it’s that apparent to me it’s way more obvious to you. Because remember, ENERGY DOES NOT LIE! It’ll tell on you long before you open your mouth. A person that is completely at peace with themselves is always going to carry themselves differently in every aspect. So the next time you want to tell someone that you’re ok, just be honest with them. I’m pretty sure they’re asking simply because they already can tell something is off. So give them the decency of telling the truth.

Asalaamu alaykum.