Purity

Bismillah

I decided to take a couple days off from writing, to give my brain a rest. On top of Friday being somewhat hectic. But I’m back lol.

About a week or so ago I got some feedback from one my closest friends who at this point is more like a brother on one of my previous posts. And in the middle of the discussion he was like “bruh! You need to do one on self-forgiveness!” I thought about it but at the same time was like, if it comes to me it’ll come if not I’m not going to rush it. And I guess today was the day it came to me lol.

Now…I like to look at myself as someone that moves with the purest of intentions. But that wasn’t always the case…I use to move kind of weird especially when it came to women! It was never “I can see myself being with her for a long time!” It was “whatever happens, happens…as long as I fuck I’m cool!” And that shit would always backfire like a mufucka!

I finally realized that my karma was always instant! The minute I swore I was doing something the universe was like “naaaahhhh nigga you gon feel this!” And I damn sure did…100% of the time. The shit I’d try to pull, would always get pulled on me on the backend and I’d be stuck looking like an idiot and it was all my fault. You become your thoughts!

The first step I had to learn to take was…breaking the mentality that I was bigger than the universe! He/She is always in control!!! The next step was learning to forgive myself for my own ignorance and dwelling in it instead of fixing it. Forgiving yourself can take you a long way…and I’m definitely a living testament to it. I forgive myself on a daily basis not for self pity but just to keep a clear conscious.

I remember a time when I felt like I owed an explanation for my actions and I realized that I only felt that way because my intentions weren’t always pure…once I moved to the pure side I realized I don’t have that impulse to explain anything anymore.

Freedom of conscious is a beautiful thing…work towards it while you can!

Assalamu Alaykum