Picture That!

I’ve been in a well overdue isolation for about 21 days…now I’m using the word isolation because I’ve somewhat isolated myself to be able to dig deep inside myself without having too many interferences. And it’s definitely been working! I’ve opened old wounds and have been able to heal them just by simply typing and publishing my thoughts…thoughts I’ve kept locked up for years!

One horrible habit I had was trying to use my laid back demeanor to keep from letting on that my anxiety which resulted in….an emergency trip to my therapist which I’ve spoken about before on Facebook. One thing she constantly tells me to do is…when I’m in a negative head space to remove myself from wherever I am. And I can honestly say that in the beginning I was not doing that at all! I’d stay there and completely ruin whatever was going on.

As time goes on I’ve noticed that I can remove myself from just any situation without having to think about it. I really didn’t notice it until I came here…it was like “damn bro you came along way in just a few short months!”. It had me imagining where I’ll be once I fully take control of it.

Now on the flip side…”protecting my peace” has become the biggest assignment I’ve given myself. A part of doing that is realizing that as someone with a healing aura…I CAN’T HELP EVERYONE!! And that’s something multiple friends have expressed to me…but for one reason or another it wouldn’t stick until now! Like…I literally sat down and came up with a list of the things I’m willing and not willing to accept both from a romantic partner and my friends.

While at the same time setting standards for myself, in terms of not being so hard on myself when things don’t go as planned. One thing my therapist always says is, “if you don’t give yourself room to fail because no one else will!” And since I’ve applied that to my everyday thought process I’ve noticed a huge difference in how quickly I pick up on new things! Which goes a long way when it comes to learning to love yourself!

“Picture that….a Black Man learning to love himself!” – Wale “Set You Free”