Just listen…

Hope y’all are enjoying your Sunday in whatever capacity that may be!

Over the last I’d say three years I’ve been slowly but surely becoming more spiritually inclined and more self aware. And one thing that I’ve noticed is I’ve become more and more conscientious of what I’m feeling on a spiritual level. It’s definitely scared me quite a few times simply because of the accuracy of the feelings.

Since taking this journey I’ve noticed that I no longer listen to words or even body language…it’s more about the feeling I get when I’m in that person’s presence. Because we all know that “energy doesn’t lie”. Now along with this heightened sensitivity to the environments I’m in and the people that I’m around, I’ve gotten to a place where I’m able to decipher whether or not I won’t to be in that room or around that person any longer than I have to. But with that…my old way of thinking kicks in…”ah man you trippin, they cool!”.

In my eyes that’s the hardest part of having a healing aura…we attract who we are! I asked a friend of mine “why do I always attract broken women?!” her response was, “you attract them because you’re broken…somewhere” and it almost knocked me out my chair because I’d never thought of it that but it made complete sense! I’d spent so much time trying to “fix” other people that I’ve never taken the time to fix myself.

I mean I felt like living by the mantra of “expect nothing but accept everything” can be a double edged sword that can take a wrong turn when loneliness sets in…that “everything” can turn into “anything” before you know it! And that’s what’s been happening for me…now by no means do I feel like I’ve settled but I’ve for surely put my own interests in the backseat to cater to others. I’m not saying that to place blame on them…it’s just how I am. Somewhere somehow it’s made sense to me that accepting them fully all while neglecting my own needs and desires would somehow work…WRONG!

Being lonely is a dangerous thing! It’ll cause you to turn a blind eye to your instincts just because you don’t want to lose that companionship. I feel like I’m finally getting to a place where I’m able to say the word “no” if certain needs and/ or wants aren’t being meet and not feel bad about it. I have to re-learn that you can be alone without being lonely. But at the same time continue to work on putting myself in a position to be at my best for when the next woman comes along. I’m constantly reminding myself to “let your conscious be your guide”…and it’s certainly been paying off. Hell this blog wouldn’t exist had I not listened to that little voice in my head that said this might work.

Oh and I have to stop apologizing for distance….if I’m not feeling your vibration or our frequencies don’t match I’m going to drift away….