Why’d you do it?

First off…good afternoon! Hope your day is going as well as it possibly could!

So….I’ve recently had the pleasure of being sent to San Diego for a month long stint for school! Been here just over two weeks and in those two weeks I’ve completed three books two of which I’d already read a long time ago but I like to refresh sometimes. But the new book that I picked up is called “Let Love Have The Last Word” by Common…who happens to be one of my humans! And one common(no pun intended) theme throughout the book is “doing things out of love and not for love”

And the more I read the more it made me play multiple instances where I thought I was doing things simply because I loved the person but as it turned out that wasn’t the case…AT ALL!! That feeling of wanting something in return was always present in my mind…those thoughts of “I hope they know they owe me!”. But as I got older I realized that thought process began to give way to literally me thinking nothing of doing something for someone and even me replying “it’s all love!” When they’d thank me…and meaning it!

This what I like to call “transitional period” I’ve gone through over the last 3 years has most definitely brought me more bad than good days but I can only account that to the fact that I’ve never been this vulnerable at any point in my life! And I certainly have a love-hate relationship with this shit…but it’s something I think we all need to experience to get the most out of life! It’s also helped me realize that the days where I give love without expected reciprocation are when I’m at my best!

I’m love in the flesh but just like anyone else I fall short of my mark…difference is I constantly remind myself…that there’s someone somewhere who needs me!